. . .how much I love you until you have your own baby. At least that is what I tell Savannah. I certainly didn't get the depth of my mother's love until I held Savannah in my arms. But, for some reason, I think Savannah gets it to some degree. She operates on another level and takes love so seriously. She understands when Alex and I tell her all we want for Christmas is love. She even goes as far as wrapping nothing, well not nothing, and after opening it, Alex and I smile because we know it is "love" and we know it is real! Savannah requests family days where we hang at home and snuggle/love each other.
Savannah puts love first. She is that kid. Love rules her life. I often find her holding Adeline's hand while they are eating dinner at the table. She stops to kiss her sisters on their foreheads in mid-play. What other siblings do you see doing that? And, what is most striking is that she is more concerned that you are happy or that you love something because, in the end, she is just happy that you are happy. Today, we were talking about clothing. We had stopped by Land's End in hopes of finding some cute spring clothes because where else does one shop for a girl this size? I didn't like much of what I saw. While driving away, Savannah mentioned that she liked something and I told her that was good. She countered with, "Well it is more important that you like what I wear than me liking it." Isn't this supposed to go the other way at this age? Isn't she supposed to fight me or push the boundaries in clothing? Well, if you have seen my sweet girl or looked at her closet, she is a proud conservative. Maybe today I gained some insight as to why this isn't the case. Maybe she knows I like cute and comfy so she does too because she wants me to love what she wears. I guess I don't really believe that is why she is conservative, or shall I say on the younger side in her appearances. I think she is just uniquely young at heart. Regardless, it goes to show that she still puts me and my opinions first.
To top it all off, Savannah loves me in a way that I never thought possible. I feel it growing deeper with each day, on BOTH sides. While she is growing up and finding bits and pieces of independence here and there, she continues to push the love envelope daily. Today, when pulling into the parking lot, the whole family in the car, Savannah asks, "Mommy, can I come up and give you a hug before you get out of the car?" What seven year old wants life to stand still so she can take time out to hug her Mommy. Out of the blue, she felt the need to shower me with her love. One of her latest tricks is writing messages of love on address labels and placing them on items that Alex and I use daily. They are stuck to our shoes, my purse and often our backs. Yesterday, we found the valentine below hidden in our bed. Today, I found a beautiful winter poem in the same place.
Savannah gave me my greatest gift. She made me a mom and with each day, she fills me with love and deepens my gratitude. I just don't think life gets better than this! And yes, most say, "Enjoy it while it lasts. She won't always care what you think etc." But if you know my girl, you know she is different.
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