Happy 2010

We actually rang in the New Year this year.  Before I get to that, I should start with the kid's and their early celebration. 

We invited the neighbor girls over for a hot dog dinner and early countdown. The older girls didn't really understand what the countdown was or how the ball dropped. I hope our confetti drop, party poppers, horn blowing and lighting of sparklers helped the girls wrap their heads around celebration.

We had a champagne toast with neighbors, friends, and Grammy and Papa and were soon tucking the twins into their beds for the last time in 2009.


Once the kiddos were quite, we left for Four Dogs Tavern with our good friends, Melissa and Byron. It was so nice to see them without kids at our feet. I was suffering from a headache so food and drink weren't high on my list. However, everyone else seemed to enjoy both. The crowd was much older and not quite what we expected but we were certainly amused by it all. The time passed quickly, most likely because we were racking our brains in order to come up with a song that the DJ might actually have. No such luck but I wasn't complaining. It kept me off the dance floor and history proves that off the dance floor is much better than on it for me! Before we knew it, we were ringing in the new decade! We couldn't have asked for better company. Melissa and Byron can appreciate the welcoming of a new year and all the possibilities it brings for our girls and our families.

Funny how it looks like we drowned ourselves in beer. My dad took this shot this morning which I have no recollection of. Can three kids, a holiday season, and one late night really make getting up this difficult - even at 9:00 a.m.? Man, we are getting OLD!

Happy 9th

We've come a long way over these past nine years.  It certainly hasn't been the journey we were expecting, at little bit of the "for better and for worse" met us along the way.  As we are at the crossroads of our journey, allowing the dust to finally settle from the past three years, we continue forward together - thankfully under one roof again. I know that I am lucky to live my life next to you.

I love you because. . .

Our girls still flip their lids in excitement whenever you walk through the door.  They love us equally.  A girl's self esteem is built by a father and I would pick no other than you to play that role in these precious girls' lives.

You always put your four girls first, me especially.

You bring me apple juice to my bedside every morning - even if you are running for a 5:00 am flight

You carried golf bags and painted neighbors houses while holding your head high when there was no other source of income.

You find a way to put a positive spin on everything (wait a minute, isn't that what drives me crazy at times)

You fought for Adeline when I had lost hope and couldn't.

You want for nothing.  "My girls are all I want."  No fancy boy toys, no nice cars - you wear ancient clothing and shoes with holes happily and almost with style??

You NEVER complain!

You look as good as the day I married you - (if you don't start aging, people are going to think I am your mother!)

You can run a sub - seven minute mile after drinking countless cokes, eating nothing but chips, and having not exercised in months.  It has to count for something right?

You held me up in the NICU when I couldn't stand balanced on my own two feet.

You do my laundry, pick up the house before you go to bed, and help me load the girls in the car each morning.

I love you because I know you love me!

Here we are nine years later posing for our amazing six year old.  More later on her amazing anniversary celebration for us.

Blowing out our "wish" candles that Savannah provided us.  

Lila's Christmas Program

Our Lila Grace is more musical than any other three year old I know.  She sings - always!  If there is music she hums, if the words are slightly familiar she tries, and if she knows the song she belts it out.  She has favorite parts of movies, favorite adult songs, and favorite children's songs too.  You would really have to see her perform to understand her unique love of music.

We were so excited to watch Lila perform in her Christmas program right before preschool let out for the the holidays.  This was Lila's time to shine, she would be in her element.  Not only would she be singing numerous songs that she knows, Mommy, Daddy, Grammy, and Papa would be there to watch and praise her.

Miss Lila was very cute walking into the sanctuary that morning.  She smiled and waved but was very focused on the job head.  She took her place on the riser and began singing the moment that the music started.  I began to notice that she was crossing her legs and losing her balance over and over again.  She didn't seem to mind because she didn't miss a word or a motion.  Unfortunately, she was so squirmy and off balance, by the crossed legs stance, that she fell off of the riser.  I was heartbroken for her because I thought she would be embarrassed.  I quickly ducked back into the parents and let her teacher come to her aid (I would elicit crying for sure).  In no time, Lila was up and singing again.  By this time, she was looking at her Daddy (avoiding eye contact with me) and whining his name quietly between songs. I knew.  She was doing the potty dance and in pain.  I didn't know what to do.  Take her down off the stage and have her miss the short performance, it is after all her moment?  I ended up leaving her and quickly grabbed her after the last song was sung.  I swept her into the bathroom where she covered her eyes and cried.  She had peed in her pants but avoided opening up the flood gates, thank goodness.  She was so ashamed and upset when I pulled off her tights.  That was it for her mood during the reception too.  I was heartbroken for my little girl.  Instead of feeling proud she felt shame and stayed buried into her Daddy's lap for much of the reception.

A couple of weeks have passed and I am beginning to see the future humor in all of this.  But for now, I am happy to have this clip of her redeeming herself at home with the last couple line of, "We Wish You a Merry Christmas" (motions and all).

Here is clip of her performance and fall - please excuse my sudden outburst of prayer?? at the end



Here is a clip of a very pained face after the fall while still doing her very best to hold it

Remembering. . .

I am pretty sure I was still going through the motions and running on adrenaline, three years ago. Today, I am still working on allowing myself to feel the fear and pain while recognizing the amazing journey.

Three years ago our Christmas card was sent from the NICU (the first picture of my three girls). The picture touched me which left me praying that the girls would learn to love and feel love, especially after watching their older sister love them unconditionally. We begged God to heal our baby girl who was still fighting for life after three long months in the NICU. Looking back, God answered those prayers and Adeline made a remarkable turn around in three short weeks. On Christmas day, Adeline was discharged, and joined her family at home. The love of sisterhood has grown each day since.

This year, we celebrated the ease of life, the health of our girls, and joy of family. 

We are thankful for God's lessons over the past three years. I feel that our family remains centered during the season, reflecting on the gift of family and God's grace. The stress levels and chaos are down and the presents are lower in number, while the "moments" with one another continue to multiply.

Christmas will always be about Adeline and her fight for home.  She will always be the gift that made my family complete.

Here is The Belle on Christmas morning, thrilled that Santa put Goldfish in her stocking. 

 

Merry Christmas

Scenes from Christmas Eve

Thank goodness for a big bed and Curious George - why do the Holidays always wear me out?

A rare moment of Adeline snuggling in                                             Making the dough

There was a lot of wrapping done today while Adeline ever so gently placed the gifts under the tree

Dressed for church

Feeding the reindeer

Decorating Santa's cookies

The cookies are baked and ready for the Red Guy

A sibling exchange before bed

Santa Train

We were very lucky to catch the Santa Express this year. After almost two feet of snow, we weren't sure if the train would run or if we should venture out. Turns out the roads were fine and the snow only made the landscape that much more beautiful from the train window. This year we were accompanied by Grammpy and Papa, Charlotte and her family, as well as the Shield family. This provided both my twins and big girl with a peer for the train ride.

Santa paid each girl a nice long visit which included a gift and a photo opportunity. We shared our train car with only one other family outside of our group which was absolutely amazing. The snow must have held many other families back because we are usually packed shoulder to shoulder while holding all of our winter gear.

Adeline was so excited to ride the train. She has fallen in love with Thomas Train over the past month and couldn't believe her eyes when she boarded a real train. She listened to the whistle and both her and Lila Grace repetitively said, "Go fast, go fast." Lila was thrilled to board the train as well. She sang many songs during the ride and had some quality Charlotte time. Savannah was beaming from ear to ear after handing Santa her note which said, "Santa, I have been a good girl." He called her by name and told her that he would hang up her note when arriving back at the North Pole. It was one of those priceless moments.

We lucked out this year with snow because we had a wonderful time letting the girls move around on the train, chatting it up with Santa, and feeling like the Santa Express was running exclusively for our family.